There's that One Moment...

Sometimes my life can seem a little overwhelming. Sometimes my 17 month old acts as if he's possessed by demons. Sometimes my newborn just doesn't want to go to sleep. Sometimes I feel exhausted getting up during the night. There are days when I just don't feel I have enough energy to make it through the day. There are times when I'm just flat pissed at my husband. There are times I reminisce about the single days when I could go do WHATEVER I wanted without having to drag two monkeys along AND their diapers. There are times I want to cry because I feel like a failure as a mother. There are times I want to cry because I feel like the worst wife in history.
 
These times I feel like this, I usually drag myself to go make dinner, pick-up my toddler, check on my newborn, or start to clean up. And then There's that one moment.

That moment I look up to see my husband wrestling around with Calvin and I watch Calvin squeal from his dad's tickling. That moment I walk in a room and see Calvin smile so big up at me. That moment I see my husband gently kiss our newborn's cheek. That moment I catch Calvin trying to get our newborn out of his bassinet and realize he just wants to "kiss" him. That moment when my husband comes home and gives me a big hug after a hard day. That moment Calvin comes and sits in my lap and puts his head on my chest to rest. That moment I rock the newborn to sleep at 3 a.m. and he smiles so big in his sleep. That moment I see my husband trying to teach the toddler to gently love on the newborn. That moment I hear my husband playing with our son during bath time.

And it's then I realize that these are "precious moments" in time that quickly pass. I realize I need to treasure all these moments, good and bad. I realize that I have kids who love me and depend on me and a sweet husband who goes to the moon and back just to please me. I realize I am "living the dream" and have the best family imaginable. I realize that we're mortals and everyone will die but I will have an eternal family to look forward to. And then I realize...I have it all, what more could I ask for?